My new year resolutions…
So from starting in a negative light in the new year…I want to look at the positive and forget the bad today and the next day and the next 
Life is too short to let people bring you down. Do whatever helps to figure your feelings out and resolve you issue and bounce back to the positive. My new years resolutions are:
1. Make more time for friends.
2. Get a driving licence.
3. Make loads of sculptures.
4. Have more “ME” time without involving work.
5. Be more organised. A daily planner dividing time and action!
6. Family.
7. Eat more vegetables and less crisps.
8. Drink at least 1.5litres a day.
9. Stress less, do little by little and relax.
10. Live, Laugh, Love.
Happy New year everyone, hope you had a lovely evening Saturday night ♥
Weed/Smoke/Marijuana/Pot.
The first thing i ask is, how can you make someone realise that their going back to their old ways?
I used to believe it was a harmless ‘drug’ till it become the very thing that i battled everyday with someone I love. They became so absorbed by weed that i started hating the person they became, it made me hate them and fall less in love with them each day. There was nothing there. No interest, no love, no affection, no awareness, no laughter, just a blank stoned expression. There was never a conversation, not one could be constructed or kept going, it really was the end of the relationship. Weed came first. I was last. So many arguments…so many bad horrible memories…
But it was all because i wouldn’t give up on them. Because of this reason i became a very different person, i never smiled, i didn’t find anything happy or funny anymore, i became a paranoid, anxious reck. Till this day the concept and subject of weed for me has been radically altered, the moment i hear something to do with weed my mouth tastes sour and a bad memory would spring to mind.
I truly believe that if someone cant handle weed and becomes so carried away that life can fly by day by day, and forget about the people they love most – they need help. They become so hooked on its effects, it destroys everything around them.
I fear for this year as I feel old ways are creeping back again, i see all the signs. Its been done more than once, i know them distinctively now. I wonder what the future holds? its only the 2nd of January and I already see things in a negative light. All its ever done is cause arguments. Just because of someones selfishness, because they “enjoy” this addictive drug they hurt the people that love them most. No matter what stoners say, it is addictive. People become addicted to it physiologically. They become selfish. They use it to escape reality and forget about the world and issues that not only affect them but the people closest to them. The worst is when they use it to “relax” and say they need it after a stressful day. Really? Thats the most pathetic excuse just to smoke. Why is this the worst? Because the became so used to being zoned out that they cant handle the real world. Anger soon becomes an issue.
Im not stating that all are like this, but the ones that get very hooked on weed are. You can say so much, you can argue with them as much as you like, but only they can change it. Selfishness has been proven to me over and over in the past. In the past weed has always won, till i had enough. They stopped for a while, till recently. I wonder what will happen this time round? The worst part is i can already feel myself putting up my guards and turning into a paranoid reck, im growing so insecure about the future.
University.
So, ive finally completled my dissertation draft. But its not over. I still have to work on the research. I need to make a plan of each week and plan out what i must do each day. My only concern is the fact that I may be moving in the next few weeks! I have a January assessment where i need to sumbit a piece of work along side all research so far. Bummer. I really do feel abit overwhelmed already and its not even December yet.
Think i may need to make a list. Need to get organised asap because once the move starts my brain will be in scrambles! Maybe i should visit some galleries today maybe one or two to get my imagination flowing!
